This is heavy. So a month or so ago I wrote about my new beau. Things have been great between us BUT they also moved very quickly. We met at the end of July, by the beginning of November we are shacking and talking marriage...babies and houses.
I was getting something that I thought I always wanted. A man that is head over heels in love with me and my girls, a man that willingly will hand over his last to me, a man that has always kept his word to me. Don't get me wrong...I do still want those things but I also want them at the right time.
In love I am a firm believer that timing is everything! I know I rambled on and on about how I was ready to move on from my ex that lives in NO but I wasn't. I hadn't given myself the proper amount of time to heal.
In the back of my mind I always felt like things were moving a little fast with KC. I don't take marriage lightly, I've never been married before and I'm praying that when I do get married it will be forever.
So basically I told him last week that I'm not ready to get married, and I also need time and space to get clear with myself. Not an easy conversation but I think he respects the fact that I told him now rather than later.
What's next??
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My hat is off to you!!! It took a lot of self-reflection for you to do that. Some people would have continued on without even thinking of the long run consequences. You are the epitome of what a real woman is. Everyone should take note. If KC is the man that God has sent for you...when you are ready...he will be too.
ReplyDeleteWhat's next? Just keep praying and above all...stay true to yourself!!!
Thanks Dawnya. I didn't feel right in my heart so I knew I had to say something. I'd never want to put someone that I love through that. I didn't close the door on us, we are still dating. No matter what I'll always be true to myself.
DeleteIt's a wonderful thing that you can be open and honest with him and yourself. You have to do what's best for you because it effects both you and those two girls. Plus, they are watching you. ;)
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