Pandora playing...listening to love songs!

I am up early (as usual) listening to my Pandora stations pump out love songs. Awww I'm feeling in a way...wish my honey was here right now!

One of my favorite songs came on this morning, Keri Hilson "All the Boys," it always makes me think of my current relationship. The lyrics are exactly things I could say! I never knew love with another man like the love I have now.

When I was going through in previous relationships, I wanted to know why they didn't love me the way I desired them to? Why was it always so difficult? There is a distinct difference between then and now.

I don't just view my honey as my man, I view him as my friend...actually he's my best friend. I'd never taken the time to build a friendship prior to immediately jumping into a relationship with someone, always leading to an epic FAIL!

I know my relationship is built on friendship because my man talks to me like I'm one of his boys. He tells me things about men that would surely violate the "man code" lol! He wants to make sure if for some reason he's not with me, another man can't come along and run bullshit to take advantage of my kindness. I've done more for men (in the past) financially then I care to admit.

I've hung my neck out on the limb, opened up my wallet all in the name of love. Was the favor ever returned? NOPE! I couldn't get one single dollar back from a man that I easily handed about four grand during the course of our so called relationship.

I'd never had a man stand for me before now. What I need, I get. If I ask, I get! I'm not used to a man financially providing for me. I've always stood on my own and have taken care of mine.

Something about just knowing that the option is there lets me know my man loves me. He's making sure that I don't have any added stress, I love him for that. He would never take from me and my girls like so many had done in the past. For a long time I had lost all hope in the idea of finding the right person to share my life with. That hope was restored from our first conversation.

"After all the boys that I thought I loved before, I didn't know what love was, till you knocked on my door.
After all the boys that I wished had love me more, I didn't know what love was, never had this before."- Keri Hilson "All the Boys"

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Thirty days of ME...Day 15

Day Fifteen- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

1. Angie Stone "Soul Insurance"
2. Charlie Wilson "Absolutely"
3. Tamia "Almost"
4. Blackstreet "Blackstreet (On the Radio)"
5. Trey Songz "Say Aah"
6. Mint Condition " What Kind of A Man Would I Be"
7. 112 "Funny Feelings"
8. Usher "I Can't Let U Go"
9. Drake & Lil Wayne "Miss Me"
10. Jamie Foxx "Wish U Were Here"

I have Mary J. Blige running so hard through my iPod I'm surprised one of her songs didn't play on the shuffle!

Thirty days of ME...Day 10

Day Ten- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

I love music, music has helped to bring me through many trying times. There's something about hearing a song you love to lift your spirits when you are feeling down.

Happy songs; Just Fine- Mary J. Blige, Knock You Down- Keri Hilson, Crazy In Love- Beyonce
Sad songs; Not Gone Cry- Mary J. Blige, In Love With Another Man- Jazmine Sullivan
Bored songs; Bust Your Windows- Jazmine Sullivan, You're Beautiful- James Blunt
Hyped songs; Lose My Mind- Young Jeezy, Deja Vu- Beyonce, A Milli- Lil Wayne, Fancy- Drake
Mad songs; Your Child- Mary J. Blige