The journey...good news and bad

Good news first! I'm being considered for People magazine Half Their Size issue! I'm not sure when I'll find out if my story will be in it but of course I'll share ASAP!

Bad news...

Moving right along with what I've been going through during my blog break, next subject is my journey. With moving and the stress of my relationship I have pretty much lost focus. Slowly I'm bringing things back in order but I'm having to wean myself from this terrible sugar and junk food habit that I've picked up!

Last week I did three Turbo Fire workouts but I also ate like shit SO I think that cancels out the workouts lmao! You name it, I've been eating it! Cookies, caramel sundaes from McDonalds, cake, chips...shit's been real! Guess what though??? I really didn't give a fuck about the weight gain (yes I've gained about 10) until last week.

Call me crazy but my life no longer revolves around my scale. But I don't like this jiggle and clearly it's because of junk food! Mentally I had to check out. Most people trying to lose weight don't understand the pressure of keeping it off. All you can see is getting rid of it...then what?

I've touched on this subject before and it is the reality of weight loss. People look to me for advice and inspiration but sometimes I want to eat/behave like the fat girl I used to be! Sometimes I could care less about working out, that's reality.

Then my other reality really sets in yes I have two realities I worked extremely hard to lose it, I like wearing a size 10 and my health has to be a top priority. That's the bottom line.

Unfortunately I didn't finish the Jamie Eason program. There are two reasons for that. 1) With moving I couldn't stay consistent with the schedule..too much to do and too many places to be! 2) The YMCA I belong to didn't have all of the machines and equipment needed to properly complete phases 2 & 3.

The first phase of the program was killer and I was seeing results so thumbs up on that!

So what's next?? I wanted to do another round of Turbo Fire but I'm bored with the music! I love the workouts but I need a new soundtrack. I'm suspending my Y membership for now so that I can put that extra money towards buying a house. Besides working out at home is my bread and butter! 100+ pounds lost at home, it works for me! Issue is I need new DVDs!

I ordered Jillian Michaels' Kickbox FastFix DVD yesterday...reviews to follow!

Have you heard Jillian Michaels has released a new 90 day at home workout called Body Revolution??? My friend just told me about it and I'm seriously considering purchasing it! I have mentioned on many occasions that I am a Jillian fan! Her workouts have given me great results in the past. Reading up on it it has a similar structure to the ever popular Beachbody workouts. Cost is about $135 with shipping & handling, payments can be split into 4! That's what I paid for Turbo Fire and in my opinion worth every single penny!

Anyone willing to purchase it and do it with me????

Until tomorrow loves :-)

 

Almost Skinny Texas Cheese Fries

So I decided to try this recipe after seeing it on the Skinny Taste blog! The picture screamed TRY ME!

I pretty much followed the recipe exactly but I made enough for five and seasoned to my liking. I very rarely measure when I season my food. I also added diced sautéed turkey spam...don't judge me lol! I used light sour cream instead of the ranch dipping sauce since I'm not a big fan of ranch.

 

My picture didn't do these justice and the smell while they were cooking was heavenly!! Besides chopping the potatoes this was a quick meal! On the meal rotation for sure!

 

Relationship Woes...

Sorry for leaving y'all hanging yesterday, but that's the making of a great post right?? LOL!

Since I returned from my trip to New Orleans last month, honey and I have hit the roughest patch we've ever gone through. I can truthfully say there were two specific incidents when I was pretty much done.

My feelings were hurt and I didn't really want to fight for us anymore and that's real.

I remember the first time we met. I was at my heaviest weight, extremely insecure about my body. Somehow with all of my excess weight and insecurities he loved me through it. I haven't always been the best GF to him and I've doubted and questioned his him on many occasions.

With this distance he's disappointed me on more than one occasion. How do you get past the person that loves you letting you down? I understand that he's human and he has faults but when I tell him I'm going to do something, I do it and I'm true to my word. I've loved him hard from a distance the last 2 1/2 years.

I can't deny that we have a connection that is very hard to come by. I've dealt with enough men to know that finding what I have is hard.

Some days I miss him more than words can explain and I feel like nobody really understands. I don't have the luxury of sitting around crying about it, I've got kids to raise.

At this point we are still trying and
committed to our relationship. If we both had the option we'd be together every day. I have to remind myself during these times that loving someone unconditionally means going through the ups and downs. If I felt like he was giving up (which he says he never will) I'd have to seriously consider the next step.

Getting to know another man doesn't seem appealing in the least, although a few have tried :-). I'm not interested and I'd rather deal with distance than settle for someone else!

Tomorrow I'll talk about my journey!

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I really needed this break!

I've been M.I.A. for over a month now, and I've missed posting to my blog! I've definitely missed my buddies in blog land (waves at new followers...I see you boo!) although like normal (when I take mini breaks) I have been reading and commenting here and there on your blogs!

There's a lot to catch you all up on so I'll break it down in sections over the next few days. Today I want to talk about life in general and the reasons why I haven't been posting.

THE MOVE

My friend and I moved into a nice big rental home almost two weeks ago! 5 bd/3 ba...2200+ square feet big! For what we believed would be a fairly simple move turned out to be one of that from hell! From start to finish it was a pain in the ass!



My pretty new duvet cover!

Needless to say somehow (with God's grace and mercy) we managed to get through it. I will say this though, the next place I move into I WILL OWN! Which brings me to my next subject!

HOME OWNERSHIP

I am very serious when I say that it is time for me to buy my own home. Since I don't foresee myself being married in the near future I must think and make plans solely on my ability to make it happen. Scary...a little bit, but I have to think about my girls and my stability for them in the future.

After much research, I found out that there are a ton of resources in Houston! You must be willing to educate yourself on the process and put in the work! That's how I run my life so I'm confident that I'll be able to do it!

Keep me in your prayers as I trudge through these unfamiliar muddy waters! I'll keep y'all posted on the process!



My most recent picture :-)

Tomorrow I plan to post about my relationship, then I'd like to talk about my journey and what's been happening with that!

Lastly I want to fill you in on a recent project AND my blog direction again! I wish I had the time to record and edit a vlog...but I don't so I'll try to catch you up best I can with pics!

Happy Monday!

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