The majority of my posts are typically about my weight loss journey, occasionally I'll post something about my life outside of weight loss. Today this is on my heart so I'm going to share it.
I haven't really gone into great detail about my relationship because it's a very sensitive subject for me. I have said on many occasions that I feel like he is IT for me, that has not changed. I love this man like I've never loved another.
He came to see me this past weekend (arrived at 3 am Sunday morning, left 8 pm Sunday evening) made the long drive from NO to Houston because I was agitated about not seeing him since February.
Was I happy that he came, yes of course! Was I happy that he was only here less than 24 hours, hell no! I understand he has very limited time due to his job and obligations to his child. One of the many things I admire about him is the fact that he's a great father.
I try not to throw too many fits about him not being here in the way I'd like him to. This is proving to be difficult. The LDR is not for the emotionally unstable. Sometimes I feel like I'm fighting an uphill battle.
I don't know when the gap will come to an end and that's the most difficult part. I deal with so much and most times I just need him to hug me through it but he's not here.
I don't want to give up on my love. It hurt like hell when he left, physically I felt sick. I have this empty ass feeling that doesn't go away until he returns.
I never expected that first conversation to turn into what we are living now. Every single day I miss him more and more. I really just want the nagging ache of missing him to go away. My heart is so heavy right now.
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